Tuesday, November 28, 2006

im in a extremely lousy mood but i will put it all aside and cling on to you and be joyful because i know you are worthy and you will never fails me.

'Great is our God, He shall be
Mighty in battle for me
Great is our God, He shall be
Mighty in battle for me
Wisdom and power in Him I receive
For great is our God our King'

.:sherlyn:. @ 9:00 PM

Sunday, November 26, 2006

as promise, im here to update about matthew's party although i drag doing so because im super lazy. it was great although there's only 5 visitors. actually i expected more people since this is a outreach but nevermind. we gonna try harder next time. i brought three friends along and i think they did enjoy themselves. i took over the bbq-ing after my friends left with help from the others of course. i have so much fun doing so and dont see it as a chore although im sweating like mad. the game which sandy and i initially planned did not proceed on because everyone have somehow found something to keep themself occupied. we have so much fun minglering around in each other presence and i enjoy the companion of every single one of them(:

anw since yesterday, i have been worried about winnie and keep thinking about how she is now because i gone thru similar things that she is going thru now and know roughly how she feels like. its really not easy to face it and even till now im still struggling to believe the fact after so many years. the image of my dark years just somehow flash back to my mind.the least i can do now for her is to continue praying hard for her and i will never stop doing so until everything will be fine for her.

.:sherlyn:. @ 10:59 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

my throat hurts):

.:sherlyn:. @ 10:08 PM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

things between my family and i have been fine once again and i promise to cherish it. thank you people for all your concern during the past few days(:

past one week have been well-spent. the curry puff making session with my cousins and aunts turned out succesful and i think it is super yummy. on top on that, been spending alot of my time with central a people and we are becoming more and more happening these days doing alot of stuffs and visiting alot of places. they brought me alot of joy and i love every single one of them. not forgetting the day spent at hui's house being silly and chatting about almost everything under the sun.

going to matthew party(bbq) later so off to go and prepare. will update about it tomorrow or the day after.

.:sherlyn:. @ 11:53 AM

Monday, November 20, 2006

many of the times, things just dont happen like how i want it to be. i want to be the salt and light everywhere i go but it always ended up the other way round esp at home.

from young im quite a spoilt child. everybody at home will give in to me. arguement with my brother always ended up with me winning. my ah ma dote on my brother more and my father dote on me more. i dont know why but it just seem this way. my father seldom scold me and when he do, i will answer back and sometime not talk to him until he talk to me. i feel guilty everytime after that and many times i want to apologise but i hold back because i dont have the courage but still he dont hold any grudges against me and continue to love me. i dont share a verygood relationship with my ah ma. she dote on me too but not as much as she dote on my brother.we do share happy times together quite often though. i know the time they scolded me is because i did something wrong and they have my interest at heart but im just too proud to admit my mistake. things like this go on until i found the true meaning to life. i started to put myself in their shoe and think about their worries. i begin to really love them from the bottom of my heart. thinking back, i think im the one being selfish and demanding. although sometime i still react the same way, it is definitely less often and our ties have become closer.

after afew months of peaceful relationship, i argued with my ah ma tonight again over some trivial matter. i think if i were to keep my mouth stup just now nothing would have happen and she will stop when she is tired of nagging but i lose my cool and talk back. it ended with us not happy with each other. i regretted what i did now that im thinking back but its too late. i know that we will be ok in less than three days from now and we will not be angry for long but i dont want things to be this way. i want them to feel that im a changed person and no longer the little girl i used to be. i want my actions to be a living testimony to people around and not saying a thing and doing another.

i thank God for giving me a great family. they are all very good people but just that i choose to think badly of them. i love them but just that i didnt know how to express myself. i want to stop all these nonsense and be more tolerant and loving. i know the love i have for them is definitely lesser to the love they have for me.

.:sherlyn:. @ 11:17 PM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

recently have been out most of the time and spending very little time at home and when im at home i'll be either sleeping or playing the computer.

tuesday sharing by jinqi and winnie have been beneficial. i really admire both of them for their passion and faith towards the KOG. cg after that was great. im glad they enjoyed the game winnie and i have prepared. praise and worship was fun and all those actions that they came out with is super funny but i think my actions is alittle retarded.

wednesday went for netball after so many months. amazingly i ran 2.4km for warm-up without stopping. this is something that i never achieve before and im so glad i did it. after that i went to vivo city to meet the rest and we bought food up to the roof top place to eat. wanted to go doulos which will only be in singapore every five years but it started raining so we went to toys r us while waiting for the rain to stop. doulos is a very big ship selling christian stuffs. we found a chinese bible inside and read john 3:16 out loud and i think most of the surrounding people was starring at us when we did that. after that head down to pasir ris park to cycle. i broke the break while cycling because i kinda fell when i couldnt break in time and hit the back of the person in front of me while turning so have to pay 8 bucks to the shop owner for the broken break.

today accompany my ah ma to some ulu place to see doctor then went to my friend house to play some playstation game. i realized that i can handle fighting games better than any other games.

p/s: i think i need to learn to plan my time well for the time to come and fit in some time to stay at home to accompany my family members(:

.:sherlyn:. @ 11:27 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

celebrated puiwah's birthday at winnie's house with our very own home-made pancakes. i scald my finger in the process but nevertheless i still enjoy it. watch doraemon and goong before heading down to ikea and queensway. have so much fun exploring ikea and trying out most of their display products. suppose to go jogging in the evening but plan fail because my cousin is in my house and he want me to accompany him watch some stupid vcd. been told that im suppose to plan for tomorrow games with winnie. super excited because its my first time doing and finally i can do something for the group. hope that everything turn out as expected and everyone enjoy whats been install(:

.:sherlyn:. @ 12:06 AM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

saturday always never fail to make me happy. its the day in the week that i look forward to the most simply because i get to strengthen my faith and hear more from His words and enjoyed the great fellowship with the people He place me with.

today believer's gathering sermon somehow struck me a little more than usual. its on the habit of confession. confession is not just about admitting your wrong but also having the courage to apologise for the things you did wrong verbally mentally and physically to others. even negative and evil thoughts running thru our mind is a big NONO. this is one area i think alot of people including me have difficulty really letting it all out. it takes alot of pride and courage for normal people to do so and whats more for a person with quite high ego to a certain extent like me to do it. by faith i will overcome it and try my best not to sin and if i did sin, i will confess and seek forgiveness and not repeat it again .

central A shrink in size today because alot of people went oversea. anw i think recently i fall deep in love with ribena sweet and i think central A people have been influence by me and seem to like ribena sweet alot too.

daiso is super cool. went there today with mila, winnie and puiiwah. the things are super cheap and there is such a wide range of items in just that shop alone. love that place.

my shepherd is back from japan today and im so excited to meet her next week.

last but not least, three cheer for the happy girl and eating machine family(: hip hip hurray X3

.:sherlyn:. @ 11:03 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

end of exam = no more ( studying + stress + homework + tests + nagging + books)

all this means a carefree life for the next one month or so until its time to take back nlevel result.

gonna make full use of my time and do as many things as possible. half of my schedule is already been booked and the other half will see how it goes.

the tittle of my entry say it all. there's just so much things for me to be thankful and joyful about.

.:sherlyn:. @ 11:50 PM

Sunday, November 05, 2006

friday was a great day. spend the first half of the day with my dad at the place that he wanted to go. he ordered quite alot of stuffs and i have to eat most of it(this mean that i have put on more weight). after that went to evie's house at ard 7+. she bought alot of pizza but i didnt eat any. so unlike me right? its not bcos im shy or what but just that i've been eating alot of pizza for the past one week. i joined them only for the game whacko. i think she's really nice. tt's so random but nvm. went off from her place at 11.

saturday was a exciting day. I HAVE MY FIRST VISITOR. supposingly there should be two but one if them last minute cant come:( im so glad the one who came enjoyed herself and is somehow touched by the atmosphere. it feel really great to be able to share my joy and peace with others. its simply a indescriable feeling. im gonna work hard and bring more people.

back to today. today was not so good laa. super frustrating! having flu since afternoon. its like super not appropriate timing to have flu laa. tomorrow i'll be having my emath olevel and i need the full concentration today to study and do some last minute revision. i just cant seem to concentrate. its one of my most sucky subj that im scare of and this have to happen to make me panic even more. in the end, didnt do much revision cos i just feel so terrible. i dont wanna be DOOM tomorrow.

i miss the two that went oversea badly:(

.:sherlyn:. @ 8:49 PM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

LOVE! the effects of it is really powerful and some people can go to the extent of doing all sorts of ridiculous things that make them go out of their mind just to gain it. but the sad thing is it dosen't mean that if you love someone and give the person your all, the person will surely love you and treat you the way you treat him.

recently, i came across someone who behave like one who lost her mind just bcos she couldn't get the love and attention of the man she love. she began to harass the girl that the guy keep in close contact with by calling her late in the night non-stop and keeping quiet whenever she answer the call. she curse and swear at the girl family member and saying very nasty thing about them. she even threaten to slap the girl. the girl tried to keep a distance from that guy and ignore and put up with her but for months, this still go on. the girl have been enduring all this and painfully suffering all this while.

the girl who've been harass is a close friend of mine but there's just so little that i can do to help her really make me feel like im a lousy friend. there's just so little that i have done to help her through this dark period of her life. i do not know really how to react when she tell me those stuffs and all i can do is to tell her to ignore and dont worry so much. i really wanna share her burden and bring back her smile. i've rather she continue to tell me all the stuffs then keeping it inside her and put on a brave front. i guess the least i can do on my part now is to continue praying for her.

i think the girl is super childish and irritating laa. why don't she just cherish her life more and do more meaningful stuffs instead of wasting her time on a guy who don't even love her.

coming back to me, i would rather focus all my attention and love on my one and only God who'll be with me no matter what happen throughout all my life and guide me towards the amazing plan He have just for me. is this not a better way to live life meaningfully? i just can't figure out what some people are thinking.

.:sherlyn:. @ 6:15 PM